If we knew that tonight we were going to go blind,
Patsy, my oldest sister, died this morning. I have heard that she was conscious and aware; able to visit with her closest family members and a few good friends. Patsy also had the comfort of having her wonderful grandson, Brad, spend the night with her in the hospital. Today is his 38th birthday which has a poignant quality to it.
I am having many feelings but most of them are relief for her that her discomfort is over. Relief blended with sadness over the loss of my sister. Nonetheless, with the Grim Reaper stalking me so closely I realize that death can sometimes be a friend. I do hope that Doyle, Patsy's husband and my good friend, will be alright. He has always been so kind and generous to Paul and myself. I wish he did not have to go through this. That is equally true for Patsy's children, Susan and Barry.
Mostly I am in a reverie enjoying all of my memories of time spent with Patsy, conversations we have had... I have loved her dearly and always will. For many reasons, losing Patsy being a poignant one today, I am looking closely and with joy at all that surrounds me!
Thank you Patsy for so very much...
Judy
*http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pema_Chodron
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7s-rRMUl04I
"She's funny, she has kids and grandkids, she has an opinion about how Cher looks after all the plastic surgery. She's not a stereotyped Buddhist nun, in other words. You don't have to be a Buddhist to learn more about compassion and fearlessness from Pema Chodron. She has Christian students, Jewish students, athiest students, and any other flavor of belief or non-belief that you can think of. She does not show any interest in converting anyone to Buddhism, just in teaching us how to be gentler and to suffer less."
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2 comments:
Dear Judy,
I feel for your loss. Geri and I have you, Brad, Susan, Paul and Jeff and Jan deeply in our thoughts today.
Affectionately,
Richard
Dear Richard,
You are such a lovely person. Thank you for your kind good wishes today and all the loving attention you have given me over the years... Always a prince of a man! And Geri is a joy as well.
Paul and I probably will not go to my sister's funeral tomorrow in Little Rock since I am a bit under the weather these days as you know. How's that for euphemistic. Rather there is to be a ceremony at the graveside in Gurdon, Arkansas tomorrow, Monday the 23rd, at 2 pm which we will toodle over for. The weather is so springlike and lovely now. Quite a setting which no church could equal, I think, for paying homage to Patsy.
Love you,
Judy
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