My mother became ill in August 2008 with ovarian cancer. This is a story of the final months of an exceptional woman.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Beware the Ides of March?


Ides, a day in the Roman calender
that marked the approximate middle of the month.
Specifically, this may refer to the Ides of March,
the date of Julius Caesar's assassination.
However, every month had its ides:
the 15th day of March, May, July or October,
or the 13th day of any other month.
Ides may also mean this day
and the seven days preceding it,
counting backward toward the nones.


I am slinking about the hacienda preparing for the miasma that will rise from Lake Hamilton tomorrow, 15 March 2009. My best Carmen Miranda confection is at the ready to repel fetid vapors on that Day ... The Ides of March. No ill winds will dare approach me or mine as I fabulously sashay up and down my Shangri-La Deck !!

Shakin' a leg!
Judy (via jeff)
PS Yes, I continue to feel relatively good as you may have surmised.
PPS This guy who calls himself "jaz" has been kinda harrassing me. He suggested that prancing about on a porch with fruit on my head might not be my highest calling? Some folks really do just get beyond their station!!!
When we feel responsible, concerned and committed,
we begin to feel deep emotion and great courage.


Thursday, March 12, 2009

What a difference a week makes


"Our actions, our words and our thoughts determine our lives;
the happiness and the suffering that will be our lot"
Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche

The weather has been fairly wretched since my last blog entry, my lovely lacecap Hydrangea which QueenJanita captured for me froze and life in our watery hacienda has been generally on the DULL side. You would think I would be petrified with ennui.

NOT so. Yesterday I trotted over to the Genesis Center and Dr. Muldoon dished me up a big dollop of HappyTalk which did the trick. I had a chest xray which he said was "good" (???what can that mean? I am certain the tumors are still there. Perhaps they are not growing?), my blood counts back to near normal range, etc. Thus, I marched over to the IV poles, got plugged in and had me a chemo treatment.

When I go in next week Dr. Muldoon wants to repeat my CA-125. As you may recall this is a blood marker for ovarian cancer cells. The absolute level of it in the blood is not as significant as whether the value is trending up or down. My last level was, unfortunately, trending upward. Fingers crossed...perhaps, the trend is now in the opposite direction?

Feels good to be doing something! And my pain patch continues to do the trick. Nary an ache registers on my enraptured brainpan. I feel so good I have even begun to notice and enjoy all of the hyacinths, narcissus, daffodils and tulips Jeff scattered about the garden.

Life is good. For the moment. Which is all any of us really have, I suppose.

Before I sign off today I want to say that my thoughts are not constantly about myself. Having a blog where that is the "subject" makes it seem that way. I am quite concerned about my lovely older sister, Patsy. She has been quite weak and getting low grade fevers at night. No one can quite fathom what it is all about. Patsy...you bounce back soon, ya hear!!

Now back to some good reading and beneficent thoughts...
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Still aware of what day it is,
Judy
(via jeff)

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Vacherie, Louisiana, United States
Born in rural Arkansas my tongue took up residence in my cheek shortly thereafter. I use it to speak "Genteel Southern Lady". Cussin' I only use when provoked by the Uppity. Paul, my husband, and I have lived in Cajun Country for many years raising cane, twins (a boy and a girl; now adults? definitely old) and other mischief. Alligators, water moccassins and bears have tussled with me as I protect our swampy coastal farmstead. We are stuck now on lovely Lake Hamilton near Hot Springs where we have our second home. We have been here waiting for Godot since my heart valves blew out Late November 2007 and now with cancer diagnosed August 2008. The Furies have me in their sights... I am writing this blog to let my Beloveds know how I am doing so they will not "get off" in imagined ways on my dire straits. The reality is bad enough without turning my story into a B-grade movie of the mind. I know all of you wish me the very best. And I miss you! never no mind your fevered imaginations. This is as close as I can get to a fond and loving chat with you right now... Sadly, Judy aka Mizflounce passed away peacefully early on Sunday morning May 30th 2009 age 78.